Isaiah 6:1-What Does The Vision Cost?
Your soul's personal history with God is often an account of the death of your heroes. Over and over again God has to remove our friends to place Himself in their place, and that is when we falter, fail, and become discouraged. Let's think about this personally, when the person died who represented for us all that God Was, dis we give up on everything in life? Did we become ill or disheartened? Or did we do as Isaiah did and see the Lord?
Your vision of God is dependent upon the condition of your character. Your character determines whether or not truth can even be revealed to you. Before you can say, "I saw the Lord," there must be something in your character that conforms to the likeness of God. Until you are truly born again and really begin to see the kingdom of God, you only see from the perspective of your own biases. What you need is God's surgical procedure, His use of external circumstances to bring about internal purification.
Your priorities must be God first, God second, and God third, until your life is continually face to fact with God and no one else is taken into consideration. Your prayer will then be, "In all the world there is no one but You, dear God; there is no one but You."
Keep paying the price. Let God see that you are willing to live up to the vision.